Is it normal to feel so worthy yet so worthless at the same time?

Im at a point where I don't know where to begin to start my life. Im 24 and I know it is common to be at this stage at this time but I still see people my age who seem to have it together already or at least have something that fulfills them. I don't. I know what I want to do, I know what I can do, but none of those things have fulfilled me. Well they have actually yes, but I do feel like I can do better but I don't know where to start. I'm broke so that doesn't help cause I literally feel like I can't do anything first without money. I'm looking for a stable job but again, I dont want to get stuck at a job that doesn't fulfill me. I want to feel fulfilled, like I am a part of something great, be recognized because I feel like I am worthy. But these struggles make me feel worthless, almost like am I just nothing? which is why nothing fulfills me? Sometimes I feel like I just need a group of friends. I dont have that many cause either I dont like them or they dont like me. Im very selective with my friends cause majority of people are fake but Im also selective in general. I am not the most vulnerable person which I think I need to work on in order to find something fulfilling. The only time Ive been vulnerable is with my bf. Hes the only person and thing thats made me let go and I feel so fulfilled with him. So I have to find something in terms of a job or hobby that makes me feel that way but its hard. Is this normal?