Is it normal to feel satisfaction because of my less successful hs peers?
I finished high school 25 years ago and in high school I was considered a geek and a loner. I made bad grades and everyone believed that I would never amount to anything. After high school I joined the Navy and saved up for college. Once my contract ended I went to college and became an accountant.
A few months ago my father died and so I came back into town so that my Mom and I could straighten out the financial situation...
During my first week, I went to a grocery store to pick up some frozen dinners and the lady at the register looked very old, wrinkled and sagging and when I got closer to her I recognized her as the girl that spread that nasty rumor about my being gay during my Junior year! She hardly recognized me. I found out from some friends that she lost her scholarship as she partied more than she studied and she lived off her parents until her Dad declared bankruptcy.
Then I got into the car to head home and on my way home I saw a man shaking one of those "$5 Pizza" signs in front of Little Caesers. He was the guy that told the girl that wanted to ask me out that I got herpes from messing around with my cousin! And this once buff and big Adonis was now a fat couch potato!
Those two weeks I saw many of the peers that made my life a living hell in high school! They were everywhere from behind the counter at McDonalds to serving my Mom and I dinner at Chiles and they all looked horrible with equally horrible stories to match, most of them involving their own arrogance.
I feel bad for feeling this satisfaction and I feel worse for feeling this condescending, I have never had these thoughts before and I am usually very sympathetic to the circumstances of those that were not able to make the kind of lives for themselves that I did but I can't help it! Is it normal?