Is it normal to feel numb about traumatic experiences?

I've had some experiences many would consider traumatic during my childhood and even recent years. I was touched by a person multiple times when I was around 6-7 and saw them masturbate multiple times in front of me. I was bullied throughout all of my life, I have memories of my dad and mom hitting me, of dating someone who was incredibly toxic and dangerous, and other stuff.

But yet, I can't feel much about any of it all, I tend to think about it and I can't see it as bad, it can't bother me, and I don't like it, it stresses me out, I want to be able to let emotions out because I'm incredibly numb and rarely show any emotion, and keeping all of this kinda blocked isn't good, it makes me feel anxious and depressed and all.