Is it normal to feel like you have to soul search yourself?

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I Been wanting to for a while now, but not sure how, letting go of certain things, unlocking the parts of me I locked up because I had a problem with it because its not how I should be because of this or that. I Use to be more happy, cared less, and wasn't mean about it. I Am known on here as Eagwol, I give advice but other times my comments are just random and no help at all. I use to go in the chat room and say Eagwol was here, Its been more than I week since I did that, just don't feel like it anymore.

I died at some point in the past, I put down my sword and only carried the shield, through an endless fog field of a battle but I wander alone, along aimlessly I seen my body, but haven't reclaimed myself. The only time I lose sight of it is when I want to reclaim myself. Running back to it, only for me to be gone, and over time, I am there again on the ground. I Just keep waiting, keep getting angry and sad because Its not enough for me to do anything long term about it.

I Like to be my own biggest fan, sometimes I find that difficult, Every time I tell myself I will keep making better choices with everything I give myself excuses and influence myself to not care about it. But it doesn't take long for me to not believe me.

It was me who put me here, sure I been treated badly but not all the time, I had a lot of positives too, but some how I just died. I Don't know where to begin, how to fix myself, how to be happy more and not so realistic about the negative things in life, and with myself, I think if I faced myself I would be afraid. Not on what I could do, just who I let myself become. I Would want to kick my ass.

is it normal to feel like this? I Feel so lost...

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  • lightandlove
    8 years ago

    It is normal to feel like this at some point in life...there is so much negativity around, but also so much beauty... Is your glass half empty or half full? At some point in my life I became very negative and then I did this: every evening before going to bed for a month I wrote down 3 things in my life I was grateful for. Some of them were the same day after day, like thank you for my car/house i live in. But then it started to chage and it became more to do with a day I just had like thank you for good time I had with my friends today or for an inspiring movie I watched. I feel so much better now. Now I write 3 things I want to have in my life and it comes to me easy :) Also, I think we are more afraid of the power we have inside to change the world than of anything else. I feel you are a good person and you care.

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  • Eagwol
    8 years ago

    I Don't like screwing up, I don't like having problems, it makes me feel less of a person, feeling like the only one with the problems.

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