Is it normal to feel like this?

Hey

The past few years I have been battling numerous 'mental health' issues that make me feel pretty uncomfortable.

First up is anxiety. While I'm not sure if I am suffering from this I certainly do have similar problems. My day is a constant battle. I feel nervous in public and hate having any attention drawn onto me. I hate birthdays, because of the attention to. In college when I get ultra nervous when I have to feedback to the class about a topic, even if I'm confident in my answer. I always have to think about when or if I can pee, if I'm in a situation where I cannot easily get to a toilet I suddenly have a massive, sudden urge to pee which is unbearable. I then have these horrible thoughts of what could happen if I don't go, no matter how unlikely they are. When this happens I cannot focus and just totally get absorbed into my own bubble with me just focusing on how I feel, making me feel worse.

I constantly feel sick also, but it's a problem which mostly arises before or during social situations. I have this fear that I may be sick while I'm out. I know it's unlikely, but even if I feel ever so slightly ill my whole mind goes on a rollercoaster thinking of embarrassing and horrible situations, making me feel 10x worse. Sometimes I feel so sick that I'm sure I have some minor panic attack.

Well, thats my anxiety part out of the way. Is it anxiety? I'm not sure, but it's certainly affecting how I function in every day life. There are many other things which set me off in an uncomfortable mess, but I would be here all day if I typed all of them.

Next up is OCD. I'm pretty sure I have a mild form of it, but it is affecting me and I fear it may be slowly getting worse. I have to check locked doors 5 times. When I done that, I don't feel safe and I think of horrible situations such as someone axe wielding thief is going to come in, so I check 5 more times. Then again. And again.

One I checked the doors and I am finally satisfied they are shut and locked, I move on to windows where it's a similar story.

Don't get me started on hand washing either. I sometimes have to wash my hands 4 times before they feel clean. I understand that one hand washing session is good enough protection but I can't help myself but do it again. I just get these unpleasant thoughts of me falling ill, mostly vomiting. It's horrible, and sometimes I feel really down about it. Then on Facebook I have to check my notifications multiple times before I go to bed, incase I accidentally liked something. I stare at them for like 10 minutes, constantly refreshing. I think it sounds crazy, silly and a waste of time as I type this, though I know I will have to check them before I go to bed again tonight. Like my anxiety issues, theres much more to my suspected OCD.

My question is, is it normal to have some form of anxiety and OCD? I consider myself to be a pretty mild case, though it is affecting my life.

Thank you for reading, it was a relief to type this to share how I felt. Thanks! :)