Is it normal to feel like nothing matters

I went through this whole existential phase a while ago and I wanna know if this is normal or not: I feel like nothing and life matters and it is a good and bad thing for me. I'm usually very awkward and shy but when I think back to what I believe "nothing matters in the grand scheme of things" I feel really courageous and outgoing. I feel like I can talk to any girl and try new things and I feel really confident. On the other hand when I think that nothing matters it makes me sad because everyone I will ever love will die. Everything I do is meaningless because it'll all end and I'll be forgotten. Then I think if everything is meaningless that means everything is potentially meaningful because I can give things personal meaning? I don't feel suicidal, but I don't feel motivated. I feel lazy and forever unfulfilled. I feel like pleasure and happiness are the only things I live for, is that ok? Should I live to serve mankind and be a valuable member of society? Or should I live carefree? Or maybe both? Is it normal to think this way as a teenager?

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Based on 4 votes (2 yes)
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  • insanebotv21

    Age doesn't matter... I know it's not normal, but you should know you've just described my entire assistance right there. So if anything, you're not alone.

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  • Murun

    Quite normal for an intelligent person to think these things at some point... Life's bittersweet paradox.. Everything matters, yet nothing matters! Balance these two truths wisely and you should be ok.

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