Is it normal to feel happy at the sight of people afraid of you?
The thought of someone cowering in fear of me, acknowledging that I'm powerful, being rightfully afraid of me is something I relish the thought of. It makes my head buzz and tingle, and gives me an overwhelmingly happy sensation in my gut. But, thing is, I'm not a particularly scary person. I've only ever been in one fight, I'm kind and good at socializing, I can turn my charm and kindness on like a faucet - this makes me wonder if it's a front. I hate talking to people and being around people normally. Social interactions feel boring and hollow and empty, no matter how much the other party seems to get out of it. I lead a normal life otherwise. I've buried these feelings deep within me and I feel like recently that they're trying to burst out. Is this some sort of mental condition? What's wrong with me? Is this normal?