Is it normal to feel guilty about losing your virginity?
So, I lost my virginity for the first time about a year ago. It was absolutely wonderful. My boyfriend took me to a hotel, and he was nothing short of courteous and sweet. I love him and I knew that he loved me too. We're still together even now. The problem is that I feel almost dirty even though I know I shouldn't. My family gets together and all they talk about is how I'm their '4.0 Good Girl who always listens and would never lose her virginity because she respects her body'. My friends are all valedictorian princesses who say the word sex like its a seven deadly sin. There are a few that know but they were all judgemental and I dont think they understand. My gynecologist is friends with my mom so I cant even let her know.
I just do not regret losing it. For me, sex is something that I should only have with someone I love, and I know I love him. Its just sort of hard when I grew up in a world where a woman's virginity decided her worth. I've decided that this is not, nor will ever be, the case. Ive decided that I didn't want to ever marry anyone so closeminded. My boyfriend knows, internal doubts and all. I hope to marry him someday so that doesn't rally matter anyway. He's patient and sweet about it. I just feel a bit crazy. Why do I care? Is this normal?