Is it normal to feel everything i'm feeling?

I've been describing myself as a mercurial tornado of moods for the past two years now. I had thought that plucking myself out of my father's old home to move down to a friend a 1,000 miles away would've had done the trick to escape and leave behind all of my miserable feelings back at the old home.

Unfortunately, it was just a temporary fix. Everytime I get angry, I am filled with nothing but just aggressive where the only way I feel I can solve things is if I commit destructive harm on to everything around me or to myself. Everytime I am sad, hope is completely lost and it takes so, so much to even get me to remotely pick myself back up again from whatever it was.

I only ever rarely feel happiness, I only experience glimpses of it, but it doesn't fail that things take that away from me the moment I feel it. Convincing me, that I am to never live happily. I often hear a lot of voices in my head, taking the forms of things and people I know for their tones. I'm told many things, analyzing things, criticizing things, judging things and being overly reflective to myself. It happens so much, I'm not even sure if this is the way thinking is even done or not.

I've been kicked around an awful lot by the dealings in my life. Where I feel like that with so many bad draws, I convince myself that if I keep rolling with the punches, things will eventually be better. Only that they don't get better and that I'm only lying to myself and pretending that they will be better. I gain so much but I lose so much more in exchange.

I don't tell a lot of people about my mental issues because, I risk getting joked on and even shit on by people who're going to tell me overly simplistic solutions that just isn't that simple. I'm sorry if I'm lacking any details that'd help convey all of this better, but I feel like I'm droning on.