Is it normal to feel anxious about this?

I've been dating this guy for about almost a year now, and this month I decided to join his group of Facebook friends- he didn't tell me about them until they were practically harassing him to upload a photo of me because apparently this was a huge deal since he's like the youngster of the group.

He showed me his one friend, (I'll use a different name) Kat, and in a call afterwards, he'd gone on to a topic about how he used to have feelings for her, how she's super pretty, and kind, etc.

Now, I didn't have an issue with this at first - considering the fact that he USED to have feelings. But, that literally went away as soon as he would keep on bringing her up in our conversations for a whole week. It made me feel like he still had feelings for her. But he'd assure me that he only had his eyes on me.

The day after that incident, he told me in another call that he was in the park with Kat and one of her friends while playing Pokemon Go, and Kat started asking him about my age (and possibly some other stuff, he didn't say anything else), when he told her how old I was, he said she started to act weird (I'm older than him by a year, and turns out Kat is a year younger than her boyfriend - Kat and I are the same age, except she's older by a few months). He said he felt weird, like she had feelings for him.

It went to the point that I'd start panicking and I started to break down crying because he made it feel like he was second-guessing who he REALLY wanted to be with. Like I had to be scared that he'd pick her over me since we don't live that close to each other.

Plus, he admitted to having feelings for her before I started going out with him. So that just added on to my anxiety.

When I started crying over the call, I think I made him panic a little because he hates it when I cry. He kept apologizing for hurting me, then he started to cry, too, saying how he loves me, that he wouldn't choose her over me, that he'd stay with me no matter how attractive or kind she was.

He also said stuff like "I stayed with you for this long, that should mean something. You are a partner unlike any other I've had."

It calmed me down, but I still can't look at his friend the same way now. She kind of bothers me with her presence online and I don't know why.
I mean, she's really nice.

Is it normal to feel this stressed out over this kind of situation? I feel like I'm really over-reacting.. I feel like a horrible girlfriend for being like this, to be honest. I'm a horrible person. :x

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  • RoseIsabella

    I think your boyfriend is kind of a douchebag for remaining friends with this chick and talking about all their "feelings" for each other. I know my man wouldn't appreciate me talking about how a special friend and I still have unresolved feelings for each other. I think he's insecure about his self worth so he keeps people from his past around to validate himself. I also think Facebook is a massive waste of time, and isn't good for relationships. I think all this bullshit of his would have been best left unsaid and that he shouldn't spend time with her. It all seems quite torturous and disrespectful of you in my not so humble opinion.

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    • AnxiousFlower

      I mean, I could care less about them being friends, still..

      But what really bothered me was the fact that she might have feelings for him, even though she also has a boyfriend and that this just randomly happened out of nowhere.

      It makes me feel like a horrible person, that I shouldn't be with him because I feel like I'm ruining their friendship.

      Even if she did like him to that extent, I wish she could have just talked to me about it - and not be creepy and ask him questions relating to me behind my back.

      All of this stuff really just makes me distrust both her and maybe him a little bit.

      I feel bad for being like this, but seriously.

      Even after I broke down, she's acting like nothing even happened.
      Not even messaging me at all saying sorry (for a girl that says "any friend of him -my boyfriend- is a friend of ours"), or at least trying to console me for the stunt she was trying to pull.

      -If it was for romance, breaking us apart or just out of plain curiosity, I'm not sure anymore.

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      • RoseIsabella

        These are all red flags that this relationship isn't what's best for you, girl. Lots of drama there... lots of drama.

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        • AnxiousFlower

          I guess this is what I get for thinking I could survive a long-term relationship.

          I'm thinking that by next week, if my attempts at fixing things and making things better for both of us don't work, or she's still going at him, I'll have more than enough reason to break it off with him.

          I'll be honest, truthful and tell him everything that's been happening. Not that I already haven't or anything.

          Yesterday, I definitely got a lot of it off of my chest.

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  • AbnormallyAwesome

    I clicked "not normal" by mistake, sorry.
    You're not a horrible person, and it's very natural to feel this way.
    I think it's a good sign that he talks to you about her, because that means he's not ashamed of his feelings and isn't trying to hide. I think if he was unfaithful he'd be more secretive (Unless he's a teenager and very naive).
    He will always find other women attractive though, just like you will find other men attractive. That something you'll just have to accept.
    I have to accept it too.
    There's millions of guys hotter than me and just as many girls hotter than my girlfriend. Doesen't sound very romantic but the difference is I love her and I chose to be in a relationship with her. The important word is "Choose". You don't choose who you find attractive but you do choose who you're with. And he chose you.
    It's good that you talked to him about your feelings, that was brave.

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  • mrbrownfinger

    what you should do is melt 2 razor blades into the end of a tooth brush and cut her pretty face up, prison style.

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    • AnxiousFlower

      hahaha, oh my gosh

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      • mrbrownfinger

        There'll be no anxiety over her being pretty and no would want her after you've sliced her up

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  • riffraffy

    I approved of every move the guy made until he started crying, what the heck! What your feeling is dread, and it's both normal and natural for the girl to have in a relationship. No girl enjoys it, but this anxiety helps foster her attraction and cements her commitment to the guy.

    You hold on to the rails tighter when your footing isn't steady. As for advice for you, set boundaries for him so that his commitment is more secure. This will ease your anxiety. Keep in mind that if he is a man worth having, this anxiety will never completely fade.

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