Is it normal to feel a different kind of jealousy
I don't really know what jealousy is. I will admit to wanting something someone else has, but I won't be bitter about the fact that they have it. For instance, if somebody is in a relationship with the person I like, I'm not going to be hostile towards them; it is not their fault. I'll of course want to be them, but I won't (intentionally) take things out on them.