Is it normal to enjoy watching snuff films?

Recently I've become even more obsessed with death. I think about it constantly. I watch snuff films online and look at pictures of people who have committed suicide or have been murdered. I don't see people often but when I do I only think about how they might die. I have always found death interesting and I've always felt a connection to it. My obsession, however, has never been this bad. I'm fearful it will only get worse from here but I can't see myself enjoying life without seeing so much death. Is this normal?