Is it normal to dislike being around disabled people .. yet be one yourself??!!

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I live in a care facility which is good, but 1 thing I hate is the bitchiness between residents; their obsessive behaviour; their sudden shouting (I am terrified of loud noise) their repeated conversations as if someone is playing a recording, literally using the same words @ the same time everyday, behind 1000-yd stares. It drives me mad & I feel few connections to anyone here. I get on better w/ the care staff.

The thing is though, this place took some finding. My parents are older so they needed to find a decent one. I’ve been in others & felt more connections w/ people, but the care was substandard. Seriously, it was like the 7th level of hell. Left for ages; covered in one’s you-know-what. My parents wouldn’t hear of me living in any of them.

Despite needing 24/7 care, I can occupy myself & talk well. I was brought up as if there was nothing wrong w/ me – I’ve been called ½ -- disabled, ½ -- not. “Begone, thou foul half-breed! Begone I say!”

Eventually I went to live @ a college for disabled people which I hated every waking moment of. There were people there who couldn’t eat, drink, control their functions etc, as there are here.

You get the idea of how disabled I actually am cos of where I live. So I should be @ home w/ the people I’ve described, but I'm not, & I hate myself for it.

Any way to stop/lessen this way of thinking??

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  • palepunk
    9 years ago

    This is just... really sad.

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  • NobodyKnows
    8 years ago

    Disabilities are different for every individual. Just because you have a disability does not mean that you are obligated to love everyone else who has one. People like to hang out with those who share their interests or values, not whoever happens to have the same disabilities they have.

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  • craze3
    9 years ago

    This is probably normal because it's natural to get irritated with people around you if they do things that are seemingly irrational, disabled or not. I feel for you so much, wow.

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