Is it normal to deny your own self/existence
So, essentially I pretend not to be a normal living ''person''. In denying my own ''self'' I'm constantly telling myself that I'm merely in control of my physical body and that my feelings, interests and future are illusions/arbitrary and do not matter. It is for this reason that for many years I have deliberately chosen not to hang/go out with friends and to ignore the important stages in a person's life such as getting a job and a driver's license.