Is it normal to care about someone so much and be afraid of it?

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I have never been such a vulnerable person in my life until I met my bf. Sometimes I'm just in aw at how much a person or thing can affect someone. Its no wonder people thought i was "heartless" before cause I never reacted to something that was worth reacting to. But ever since i met my bf, my feelings have come out like crazy....from happy emotions to complete depression, it has been a ride. Anyone who knew me before are so shock when they see me down or cry my ass off. Its kind of scary because I can get really depressed when I think about my bf in certain ways. Its not like he mistreats me, but you know, being so in love w someone makes you feel like not good enough sometimes. You want to make them proud.

So for ex, I was pretty much bullied this one yr in college. My roommates were all girls and they just didn't like me for some reason. They never left me alone or they would somehow try to sabotage me n form this click n make sure I was aware I wasn't "a part of them." Sounds torturous right? Well it was but I just didn't care enough to like stand up for myself or anything which made them push me around more. I knew I was in a sucky place but it didn't affect me that much where I felt sad. That was before i met my bf.

Now having the thought of him seeing me in that situation makes me really depressed and just embarrassed. Now I care. This goes for a lot of situations b4 I met him where I didn't let it get to me that much but now it does when I think of him. What does this mean? Whatever it is, I don't like it. I don't wanna feel this sadness burning inside of me anymore. I def don't wanna get rid of my bf but I feel like if I do, I'll be back to the careless, free me I used to be and the thought of that makes me feel good. But like I said, I don't wanna get rid of him especially when he hasn't done anything wrong. Its just my feelings for him.

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  • Tybo626
    8 years ago

    I'm like this too and in my experience when your around someone you care about you become more emotionally receptive but you lose the powerful feeling of being emotionally invulnerable but the problem is that if you cut your boyfriend loose to get that feeling back it will return but you'll feel empty for a while

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Yeah I will feel so empty and I actually like being vulnerable sometimes cause you feel something real. But times like mentioned on my post, can be a pretty dark place. I wouldn't cut off my bf. I wish we can just go away and its just us cause I don't care about what's going on until I think of him. Something so small too. Like if i drop something i wont pick it up but then i think of him and ill pick it up cause itll make him proud or something.

      At the same time though, I think he thinks I'm some kind of drama queen and little does he know, I've never been like this...just w him. He prob thinks I am this person who worries a lot and cries for drama but then he has no idea who I am. I have to have friends m family tell him he changed me pretty much but in a good way I guess. I have to explain how special he is that he's the only thing whos made me feel that way. One day this will come up and I'll tell him that I'm not like this only w him and hopefully he understands.

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      • Tybo626
        8 years ago

        I understand how you feel when I'm made to feel vulnerable like that it feels uncomfortable because of the power I feel they have over me by seeing my weakness but comforting in the sense that I can finally experience emotion on real level without holding anything back ps. I would avoid telling him because I've never managed to explain this feeling without coming across as crazy. I usually just try to hide these wierd feelings

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        • LittleGirlBrutallySodomized
          8 years ago

          Yes avoid I agree but it wouldn't matter anyway because she's acting this way in the first place. Im a man and I've had girl friends like this and it's got to the point me taking dumping her and at one point a struggle over the vehicles steering wheel and I was forced to display my man-power on her. The last word out of her mouth were "Ok you're the dominate one" before I left her. I don't think its bad for a woman to be emotional at all, in fact good. But not like that.

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  • DonaldTrump
    8 years ago

    You are a woman I hope for him you aren't the drama queen type.

    Watch the 7 minute video in my profile it'll make you feel better.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      I never thought of it that way but that makes me feel good. The only thing is my bf prob thinks I am a drama queen cause he makes me care a lot so the person he's seen is the person who cares a lot. I wish he can see who I am without him who is not a drama queen and understands that I might be really vulnerable for him but cause he means a lot so its a good thing.

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