Is it normal to break down within the first week of a new job?
(there's a tl;dr at the bottom)
I've just started working an official job after a couple of years working part-time to help pay for my secondary education.
The pay isn't all that great but I'm in it for the experience and if I do get a some cash out of it, why the hell not? Artist jobs are really hard to find in my country and it's a miracle that I was actually accepted when I took up the interview for the position.
I'm now working as an in-house animation production artist, and the job requires you to work fast and efficiently without making little to no errors.
It's my official first week in which I'm given some work to handle and I'm still not used to the speed required. You get 20-30 pieces to complete by the end of the week, not just that, it's expected to finish 4-5 pieces per day, and hand it up as quickly as possible to the quality checker for any fixes. I thought I was ready for it, but I guess I'm not. Out of the 20 pieces I was given to complete, I've managed only 7-8, worst part being the pieces I finished had way too many errors to fix. It was a must completely re-do.
My superior admitted giving me harder pieces to do but she did emphasize that most of the colleagues had to do 30 per week and giving me 20 was a bit of a jab. I can't help but think, yeah, it's totally expected that they're looking forward to me vomiting out work as fast as possible but I can't seem to grasp the speed and technique quick enough.
I've no excuse but I can't help but already feel defeated that I cannot perform fast enough for them. I'm told by my friends, who were nice enough to say that it's my first week and I'd get used to it, but I'm very concerned about how long it'd actually take me to finally get used to the production pace. How long will it take me to get used to this? Why can't I be fast enough NOW? I can't help but feel sorry for my inefficient ass.
It's eating me up inside and I can't get rid of the feeling of impending doom.
[tl;dr]
Got a new job that needs me to churn out art backgrounds. I'm not used to the pace and speed as I'm a slow as f**k artist when it comes to backgrounds and environments, and I feel like totally shit even though it's my first official week.
I'm terrified that I won't be able to catch up with my seniors and they'd have to baby me for so long that eventually they'll sack me because I'm a burden.