Is it normal to believe that you are worthless when you do most things right?

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I am 31 year old male, trying to figure this out so any help would be appreciated. I have had long term depression. I feel that life is pointless, that I am worthless, and have terrible social skills, (especially with women). i don't have a girlfriend or any prospects, can't even get a date.
I really don't want to be like this.
I am intelligent, respectful, kind and not too bad looking.
I exercise regularly (crossfit 5+ times a week) plus a long run or surf on the weekends. I eat a healthy diet (try to follow the paleo model) with no processed food, low amounts of sugar (or its chemical imitation) and low amounts of fat. I am 82kg 6"1 with minimal body fat. I would consider myself to be healthy and relatively strong for my size.
I have a good stable job that pays well, and I have no financial woes. I have 2 children that I have 50% of the time who are both happy and healthy. In my spare time I will go motorcycling or watch a movie etc.
I come from a good family and was never abused.
I take lexapro and see a psychologist regularly.
Despite all of this I still contemplate suicide every day and am lonely and depressed. I feel selfish for hating myself so much when I have lots to be thankful for. I have tried everything I can think of to fix this. I am so sick of this.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    Lift your head back up and smile

    The whole world is counting on you and no one even knows it

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  • Avant-Garde
    11 years ago

    I wouldn't be surprised if the cause of this was Lexapro. You should try switching to a herbal alternative and see a therapist.

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  • BlacknNerdy
    11 years ago

    My life is very similar to yours but i'm 18 and don't have kids or take lexapro.

    I know your pain. You feel like your in whole you can't get out of and its just getting deeper and deeper. It could be worse. You could have some disease or could be homeless. When I get depressed I usually just talk to myself or write down my thoughts. It helps depression. Try to avoid those horrible thoughts try to think of something you like when it feels like your about relive those thoughts. I was close to the point where it took just one little step to end it all. At that point I realized that ending it wouldn't solve anything it would just cause more problems. You have kids and I'm sure they love you. Try different things to help your depression. I turned to religion. It helped mine greatly And it could do the same to yours.

    Atleast you now know that your not the only one. Keep your head up.

    God Bless You

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  • Terence_the_viking
    11 years ago

    Try not to think to hard on anything.
    don't worry about things that are out of your control i.e. the weather trains being late etc.

    Thats all i got soory.

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  • DADNSCAL
    11 years ago

    Have you told your doctor all this? Do you see a psychologist, or psychiatrist? Because only the latter can prescribe medication, which makes me ask where you got Lexapro. At any rate, you need either a change of medication, physician, or both.

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    • HonestAbe
      11 years ago

      I see a psychologist. The lexapro was prescribed by my GP.
      All of this information above i I have conveyed to the latest psychologist but not really to my GP. I take my kids to the same GP and I would not like him to think that I am incapable of looking after them.
      A change in anti depressant will be necessary soon. The transition between them isn't very pleasant.
      I need to change my core beliefs somehow about myself. Easy to say when one is feeling ok, very hard to remember when your nor because people will always revert back to their core beliefs.

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      • DADNSCAL
        11 years ago

        I'd recommend stop taking the Lexapro and give talk therapy with the psych. an honest try. I think you're a lot stronger than you think you are. Tap into your inner strength to heal your self-esteem.

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  • MilleBornes
    11 years ago

    If you haven't already I'd say don't do it because of the boss thing, but if you're ok risking your job, then go for it.

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  • MilleBornes
    11 years ago

    Ok, so you feel worthless, why?

    You obviously CAN get a date, you already have two kids. Everything else you do is pretty great except the pill popping part. You obviously have something wrong if you've had depression All I can see is the fact that you see your kids 50% of the time. I only have one child and get him every weekend. The feeling that I'm not able to be a 100% father tore my heart out at first and I do not believe in suicide soooo yea, people were VERY close to not existing anymore. I couldn't focus on work well so I quit, was angry with EVERYONE about ANYTHING unless my son was with me and even now, when it's time to take him back, I get touchy again.

    That's all i can see for you with what you gave.

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