Is it normal to be this madly in love with a celebrity at the age of 10?
When I was ten I discovered a female singer (I'm a girl too) who became my entire world.
The amount of love and admiration I had for this person was ludicrous, it was like I was actually in love. I basked in the glow of her existence and my heart leapt every time I heard her name.
I'd want to incorporate her in some way into everything I did, and I did things like work out the exact age difference between us down to the day and make anagrams of my name and hers. She'd be the last thing on my mind when I went to sleep and the first thing when I woke up, and I'd dream about her nearly every night. I completely changed the way I dressed and acted to be like her, I'd relate every love song I heard to her and think sooooo far into it, like I'd wonder if she'd just see me as a stupid kid if I met her or if we had some special bond and she'd somehow "recognise" me.
I honestly thought I'd love her forever. It lasted at least 4 years but she started to sell out and I barely think about it now, although I don't think I've felt anything as strong or as positive for someone I know in person. I kind of miss having something I loved so much because it always gave me hope and made me feel warm inside.