Is it normal to be scared to smoke weed in case something bad happens while ..
My boyfriend smokes weed every day but I do not. One reason that I don't like to smoke weed is because of how it makes me think too deeply about random thoughts that disturb me.. I'll worry about how everyone might hate me and maybe things I say are annoying to people, or about how maybe I don't see my family enough (even though i see my family once a week).
I get weird "warm" sensations that make me scared I might have accidentally peed myself but just didn't notice because of "being high". I'm scared I'll have to fart and accidentally go number two in my pants because being high wouldn't be able to control it, basically fear of losing control of bowel movements and my bladder, yeah, I know it's stupid.
Also, I am scared to smoke it because what if I got a call that something bad happened? What if something bad/traumatizing happened like a fire started or I saw someone broke a bone? Then it would be so much more intense because I just smoked weed??
What the heck is wrong with me and how can I enjoy smoking weed like others can..
Or is this normal to think about all of these things and worry?