Is it normal to be overly submissive and shy and frightened about the world?

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Maybe it's because I grew up in a small town, and have never had any REAL issues. I don't know. My town is cozy and safe. It almost feels like there aren't any "bad" kids here (though there are a few, who are easily ignorable).

I could never last in a city. I mean I love going to Boston with my friends for the day or for conventions but that's the NICE part. And it's not like I'm staying there overnight. The whole city scene just scares the shit out of me. I'd like to live in the country, or somewhere down south.

But still I feel like I don't want to leave my town. I get scared so easily and I'm never a leader - always the leaders' right hand. Try as I might I can never be assertive. I can't help but say,"I'm sorry" even though I've done nothing wrong.

I'm not depressed or anything! I'm actually a very happy person all the time but I just worry about my future and me feeble ways. I'm not going to lie, I'm into the whole BDSM scene (no, I have not read fucking 50 Shades of Gay. Get that shit outta my sight) and I already know for a fact that I am more than submissive. I mean I'm still a virgin, I'm just saying like, in the future.

I don't know. If it were (and I hope it is) up to me I'd like to live a simple life with a wonderful husband and kids that I plan to bring up old fashioned in a strictly manner. Gonna go Aunt Polly on them bitches.

It's just that I could never understand "bad" people, and I still can't. My brain and heart can't process how one could commit murder, rape, robberies, and all of those negative things. I know we're humans and these things have happened for hundreds of thousands of years, but I still can't fathom those ideas. Is something wrong with me? As much as I'd love for the world to be a perfect place without bad states of mind, I know it's not possible. And that's why, more than any insect or dog in the world (I'm afraid of those things), I fear other people the most. I'm so naïve (apparently) and I never know what to do.

I want to better myself, but I don't think I can do it alone. I'm so weak, aren't I?

Oh well. At least I'm happy and surrounded by love, at least at this stage in my life. Is it normal?

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Comments ( 8 )
  • Johnnytherat
    11 years ago

    how dare you insult 50 shades of grey you blasphemous degenerate fucktard!!! ^_-

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    • anonymous9250
      10 years ago

      Totally agree with you there is no reason to insult 50 Shades

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      • Thorolf
        7 years ago

        50 shades of gray is propaganda against those with the Domination fetish and makes us all look like a bunch of sadistic uncaring bastards. I don't like it.

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  • Thorolf
    7 years ago

    It's normal. But you say you're surrounded by love, so that's good.

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  • hairyfairy
    11 years ago

    There`s a lot to be scared of out there, especially in big cities.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    I'm shy and frightened about the world too. I'm also a vicious, egotistical maniac below the surface so go figure.

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  • Sumi
    11 years ago

    Yes it is. You live at a slower pace of life outside the city. I live close by and never went in until getting a job after college. You're not weak just uninformed/sheltered.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    followers are fine they are the easygoing friends to have, dont put yourself down

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