Is it normal to arrange pills by the number that it would take to kill me?

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I like to look at them, in their little piles, each pile representing a way out, and feel like I have control over how my life is going. I'm not suicidal by any means, but the option is always there and it's comforting. I would never overdose, ever - but they are always in the back of my mind and it's unnerving.

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  • ShitFace
    8 years ago

    I almost do the same thing, I research how much of any given pill I would need to take to kill myself. I am also not suicidal but it keeps life real, as I know that the pill I am taking does have the potential to kill me, and that I am in charge of what it can do.

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    You could always play Russian roulette with an automatic pistol, instead of a revolver.

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  • KingTermite
    8 years ago

    There are so many options, pills are only one very small slice of the pie.

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