Is it normal there are no homicidal support groups?

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I go to a lot of support groups for problems I have but some things I cannot express even within the support groups.
One thing is homicidal obsessions. It's a topic that is frowned upon by society and would not be acceptable to bring up in mental illness support. This site has been a great support group for me by the way.

I find talking about these things eases my mind and lets me forget about it for a while. Something about letting out those kinds of thoughts is nice when someone listens. Talking to a councilor hasn't been very beneficial to me because the only people who understand these things are people going through the same thing.

Now I will rant a bit about why I think I feel this way.
I don't see much good in people but I do accept them for what they are. I have been rejected by society and taken advantage of my whole life. It seems the more I try the more life fucks me over. I'm not going to give my whole life story, as it is pretty much already scattered out through this websites posts, but the older I get the more it seems my future doesn't look so good. Part of it is my fault but it's because my effort has been shot down so much.
It feels like I get punished for trying which has made me a disgruntled person who keeps trying to have fun with what I have.

Now I don't plan to shoot up a mall or anything. I do understand why mass shooters snap but I don't agree with killing random people. I do however obsess over homicidal plans. I'm not sure if I will ever go through with them or not and it largely depends on if I have nothing to lose, which at this current time I do have a lot to lose.

I do know exactly who I would go after. Most of them do not know me either. They are all people who have hurt children or people I like. Some of the people who have accepted me have been hurt by others and I have a lot of rage towards them, much of it has been for a decade. I never went through with it because stalking and killing people I don't really know would be a lot of work to not get caught but I am not willing to get too into things here.

I'm actually very protective towards those I choose to like. I do sometimes wonder if I go through with this and get caught and the government will kill me for it. I understand how some people are born into a world against them.

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  • green_boogers
    9 years ago

    Homicidal support groups can turn into fight clubs. The members sometimes get killed.

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  • seakelp
    9 years ago

    OP is the supreme Edgemaster. It sounds like you already know that you should talk to a councilor, but you had to make a post about your vigilante fantasy before you went.

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  • donotmockme
    9 years ago

    There are support groups for everything, I'm sure there must be one that is open to discuss that as well. I'm sorry you feel so let down with your life but that's not your life as a whole, this is just now. You're annoyed and frustrated at your current life situation and you also seem depressed. I'm in a horrible situation right now as well and even though I've never had thoughts similar to yours, I can understand how people can do such things. I wish you told us more so that we can sort of see what you're dealing with but whatever it is and if it's not health related, you have your entire future ahead of you. If your life isn't good as it is, make it better. You seem like a guy who knows what he wants and knows how to get there but hasn't given it his all just yet. Maybe I'm wrong but I think you should explore more avenues. Life can be incredible for you if you let it.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      I know there are good moments in life as well, but it seems the bad ones are often outweighing. Actually I am not that bad off with my current situation. I am living comfortably at the moment and have been worse off in the past, but I've had a lot of life experience as well. I do have a lot of health problems. Nothing life threatening and nothing serious like cancer or anything but they do effect my daily functioning and I am on disability. If I did get another job it would be really hard for me to get above minimum wage because the work world is discriminating. My outlook for the future I think about because I have so many goals that I repeatedly get shot down for and it's been a long time that I keep trying but I don't know if I can do it forever.

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      • seakelp
        9 years ago

        The whole self-pity thing would be much more effective if you weren't talking about murdering people.

        You know, OP, the thing that most bothers me about you is that the people you're talking about murdering don't seem be be the same ones that caused your life to be in the valley you find yourself now. You just want to kill people that you think deserve it, like some sort of comic book character.

        "They are all people who have hurt children or people I like. Some of the people who have accepted me have been hurt by others and I have a lot of rage towards them, much of it has been for a decade."

        This is what makes you one of the least sympathetic individuals on this site. You're taking on face value some stories about other people by individuals who are cool to hang out with a sociopath while indulging his murderous fantasies.

        People see what they expect to, OP. Your narrow. unnuanced worldview will only serve to bring you down, as it clearly has in the past and is currently doing.

        "Actually I am not that bad off with my current situation. I am living comfortably"

        No and no. If, "I do however obsess over homicidal plans. I'm not sure if I will ever go through with them or not and it largely depends on if I have nothing to lose, which at this current time I do have a lot to lose," are thoughts that you seriously have, you are neither well off nor comfortable.

        Talk to a councilor about your unfulfilled life goals. Murdering people is not a viable one.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          9 years ago

          I didn't think i was trying to self pity or having a narrow view but i do feel a lot of resentments that the world seems against me. I didn't think i seem so unsympathetic either since i try to share my thoughts with others. Part of me feels these plans would bring me peace. Ive been through a lot of councilling and its mostly useless but i do like asking for other peoples advice for insight into how other people think. I'm very confused about a lot of things.

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          • DaMan
            9 years ago

            Bro Imma tell you some deep shit which is gonna sound like BS. The only kinda support groups that exist are for "suicidal" people and they arent support they just tell you to see a doctor. Now, you need to understand that this world is PROBABLY against you g. Now bearing that in mind you got two choices, YOU HELP YOURSELF - or you fall VICTIM. I'm sure you already know soo many victims, I used to be one bro. Read my post - I sed fuckit and basically flipped my life around like I was flipping cocaine. You gotta say FUCK what the WORLD SAYS....I SAY...THAT I AM THE SHIT!!!

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