Is it normal the emotions i'm having?

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This is going to be long but please I need some sort or advice or something, realistically I'll take anything..

Now the last 6-7 months for reasons i dont know, I've been having a lot of emotional problems that I dont know if they're normal or something more like a mental disorder. I graduated highschool back in june and in september I started my first semester of univeristy, I didn't take the transition well cause I lost contact with a majority of people that I used to see in school and I haven't made a single new friend in uni.
On top of being alone all the time now, I struggled in all my university classes and failed two of them altogether, realistically I don't know why I'm wasting money in university when I dont even know what I want to do for a living.. but anyways I went cause everyone else was and the pressures that we're coming from my family.
Now my family is a whole other reason why I can't deal with things right now. Im 18 years old and I just found out about 5 months ago that my mom was pregnant and that I am having a baby sister. Being an only child, I've wanted something like this my whole life.. but now im having second thoughts. I don't want to believe this is typical sibling jealousy but I have a fear that my parents are just going to "forget about me" I mean, im an adult now who's expected to move out in the next few years and they'll be raising a whole new child.. it makes me feel like they are starting a brand new life, ome that doesn't include me because of the age difference. Man im crying right now just typing this.

It just feels like there's been a lot of big changes going on in my life and it is really overwhelming. I have lots of crying apells now and I argue more than ever with everyone especially my parents. I cry so easily when I even try to talk about how I feel. I have panic atracks alot now. I also have anxiety which has gotten much worse recently. I skipped a lot of school last semester, which probably was the cause for me failing but I felt like I didn't know what I was doing so what was the point I going. Sadly, I self harmed when i had one of my panic attacks which ended me up in the hospital being treated for a concussion which no one knows about because I told everyone I fell. And I just have a lot of sleepless nights, most of them im up till craxy hours crying sometimes for what feels like no particular reason.

There is a lot more that I left put because I couldn't type forever but these are just some key points. Please help me in some way.

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  • SomeGuyWithAMop
    10 years ago

    *Mops up the tears*

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  • Short4Words
    10 years ago

    I wen't through a similar experience, I mean I still am I suppose. I had a lot of trouble adjusting to university. I didn't make any friends and the classes weren't grabbing me at all, either it just wasn't interesting to me anymore, or never was, or.. I was just in my head the whole time thinking about how I haven't made any friends. It was both, I'm sure. My social anxiety got so bad that I would dread seeing my own friends, even my best friend, in fear that he just wouldn't accept me anymore. That is basically what it came down to, I feared that nobody accepted who I was, and will never do so now because of who I've become. But after some much needed therapy and advice I realized that I just couldn't accept that and I knew I was in for a long journey of finding out who I truly am, and start living the way I wanted to. The only point of me telling you this is it's my hope that somehow it would be therapeutic knowing someone else has similar experiences and the reason why I think we're similar is because I think you may think you have no self-worth, but you shouldn't think that.

    I wish I could give you the answers that worked for me but I can't in confidence, I can do two things though. I can recommend therapy, maybe just having an open dialogue with your therapist, no drugs, to talk about your troubles and also how to deal with your panic attacks and I can be here to talk to (as long as you have gold or this post is approved.) I strongly recommend option A first and foremost.

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  • Wall.flower
    10 years ago

    The way uni is going for you isnt necessarily your fault, that is the education system forcing you into decisions that you might not be ready to make, if you arnt ready yet to choose right now, just dont, take a year out to focus on your happiness :)

    with the baby sister thing, I can totally relate, my baby brother was born as i turned 18 and i was jealous and very bitter that my dad who had left a while ago was going to be with this new baby all the time but he is now three and i love him too bits! i am sure you will love your sister all the same!

    i really hope things get better for you!

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  • Derpinism
    10 years ago

    I went to 3 different unis and left all of them after year 1 and I dont regret it.I also had anxiety and no particular uni friends. Pretty much joined uni because of my family expectations. Otherwise probably would not.

    got a full time job soon after leaving uni (that requires minimum education to get hired) in a big well known company with possibilities to get promoted (company pays for training courses)

    so even tho u cant graduate you can still get a decent job having qualifications.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    First world problems...

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  • thegypsysailor
    10 years ago

    Wow, it's sure piling up in your mind.
    First, just forget about your family for now and concentrate on YOUR life for now. Deep down , you know you'll always be the first born and a member of the family; don't make too big a thing about the new baby.
    Second, it's quite normal to go from an excellent student in high school to less than mediocre in college. You've stepped up to a level where all the dumbasses from high school got left behind and you have to rise to the challenge, not fall to pieces. You are there because you earned your place; act like it.
    Or quit! I tried college three times and hated every single minute of it (except for the girls; where else does a horny guy find so many hot, intelligent women in one place?). But hey, I hated high school too, and every other school I've ever been to.
    You are pretty much an adult now; act like it. Developing all these panic attacks and crying spells, is just plain counterproductive. You are driving yourself insane for no good reason!
    Only two choices I can see for you;
    1) stay in school and buckle down and do it as well as you can.
    2) leave school and find something else to do. Buckle down and do it as well as you can.

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  • DragonQueen
    10 years ago

    You should be happy for your mom, Maybe she's having another. because she misses you. And also a for a lot of women, having a baby, makes them feel young. If they are getting older. Be glad you will have a sibling. For I have a brother. And he's a selfish brat. As for your panic attacks are taking any medication. Klonopin is usually what they give to treat that.

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  • Poolnoodle
    10 years ago

    I've never been in this position but it sounds like college isn't for you. Please seek professional help!
    It's normal in the sense that you are coping with it any way that you know and I'm sure other people go through this, but again, it isn't a healthy way of coping so please get help.

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  • handsignals
    10 years ago

    To long didn't read :)

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