Is it normal that when i get in a fight with someone i feel like killing myself
Okay, so I'm a 19 year old girl and every time I get in a verbal fight with someone ranging from my mom and sister to my boyfriend or friend I get really depressed and feel like I have no purpose in life. It's like, we'll fight over something silly then it escalates as arguments usually do and I'll stomp off to my room then for some reason my anger at say, my sister, becomes anger at myself I feel like I won't do anything good in my life and that I'm stupid, ugly, ECT... Finally ending in me wanting to commit suicide. However, after the argument winds down I feel perfectly fine again and wonder why I would ever do anything as stupid as kill myself. It's like, the only thing that holds me back at that moment is thinking of how sad my parents and friends would be if I died. But it's so weird since it's like my sister may be yelling at me, and then I'm in my room thinking about how horrible I am BECAUSE my sister is yelling at me and that I should just die, but I shouldn't, because then my yelling-sister would be sad. Does that even make any sense?
-sighs- Please comment, I'm really confused :S
~SummerWolf :)