Is it normal that when i get in a fight with someone i feel like killing myself

Okay, so I'm a 19 year old girl and every time I get in a verbal fight with someone ranging from my mom and sister to my boyfriend or friend I get really depressed and feel like I have no purpose in life. It's like, we'll fight over something silly then it escalates as arguments usually do and I'll stomp off to my room then for some reason my anger at say, my sister, becomes anger at myself I feel like I won't do anything good in my life and that I'm stupid, ugly, ECT... Finally ending in me wanting to commit suicide. However, after the argument winds down I feel perfectly fine again and wonder why I would ever do anything as stupid as kill myself. It's like, the only thing that holds me back at that moment is thinking of how sad my parents and friends would be if I died. But it's so weird since it's like my sister may be yelling at me, and then I'm in my room thinking about how horrible I am BECAUSE my sister is yelling at me and that I should just die, but I shouldn't, because then my yelling-sister would be sad. Does that even make any sense?
-sighs- Please comment, I'm really confused :S
~SummerWolf :)

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Comments ( 7 )
  • Kuri0sitat

    That's not an uncommon feeling, but it's one that deserves some introspection. It sounds like you base your sense of self worth on your perception of how other people feel about you. When someone is yelling at you, maybe you feel as if they don't like you on a personal level, and you take it to heart. You can be in charge of your own happiness, though. You get to decide how YOU feel about yourself, apart from what you think others are thinking. And remember, when you are in an argument with someone, it is just a single moment in the grand scheme of things. You are not defined by whether or not someone agrees with you, or dislikes what you have to say.

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  • pubertyansewer

    ill love to fight u aswell maybe we can get physical. oh and yer its normal i've been in lots of verbal fights with my mum i just get really pissed of and want to shoot my self in the head.

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  • Truth_teller

    That sounds like low self esteem and confidence. How old are you? If you are under 18 then thats okay, if you are older then that is a serious issue needing professional help.

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  • la_uva_mojada

    you're still young. Don't sweat the small stuff.

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  • Terence_the_viking

    Some pople say that in anger it smells funny.

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  • I'd love to fight you, it'd save me killing you.

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  • kittykat9930

    It makes sense to me. I've been like this over arguments but it can also be from little things too. If my boyfriend couldn't pick me up (lives almost 2 hours away) for whatever reason, I'll end up feeling suicidal and depressed. Anything bad that happens to me would set me off almost instantly. And then the next day I feel fine! I wish I knew why!

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