Is it normal that violence turns me on?
Ever since I was about 13 I've had sexual fantasies about being violently murdered. I like the idea of being with a guy who would just hurt or kill me whenever he wanted to. I fantasise about a guy having rough sex with me as he tells me what he's going to do to me and then making me beg him to kill me before he slits my throat and then ejaculates as my body convulses and my blood squirts out all over him. Or about a guy shooting me non fatally and then fucking the wound.