Is it normal that the only thing that turns me on is the thought of myself fat?
I'm 130 lb, 5'6 girl and the only thing that turns me on is the thought of myself gaining a good amount of weight. I get really excited when I eat a lot and think of myself getting fat. Or when I try on really small clothes and they make me look fat. I know I shouldn't get fat due to health reasons and skinny-loving-society but the only turn on I feel is when thinking of me eating a ton or someone feeding me in till I'm like 50 lb heavier. I've always felt this way, I even remember being little and stuffing a pillow under my shirt and pretending I was fat when alone. Have you heard of anyone else feeling this way? How exactly weird is this and I should I give into my desire and get fat?
Thanks... Please comment, I'm really confused :S
-SummerWolf :)