Is it normal that people ruin everything for me?
I love the idea of something. I am a very passionate person, whether it has to do with work or a hobby or whatever. So I give all my effort to pursue that idea and once I'm there, it blows. Why? cause of the common reason I just came down to: people. I'll go on an interview and do my best cause I love the idea of the position and in that industry. I get it and I can't wait. Now it comes down to the actual work and the actual work is not as dreading as being surrounded by people. It's kind of like the people suck out the fun in everything. I can be looking forward to going paint-balling,ice skating, scuba diving, etc, and I'm there but then I'm surrounded by people and having to deal with them and it's just not fun anymore. It sucks. It's like I can't do any single thing that I like that doesn't involve another human.Obviously I'm not a people person. But if I want to get through life I just have to learn how to deal with people and their voices and their stupid talks all the time. I just find them annoying and fake and I can't seem to get along with them but only cause I think I'm usually the most authentic person in the environment. It's probably anti-social but I do find people entertaining as long as I am not dealing with them. Is it normal to be sort of like allergic to people?