Is it normal that my thoughts are silent?

I have always kinda disliked it when people talk to themselves, honestly. Mostly because, at least to me, it seems unnecessary. Then I literally got in a terrifying car accident. Define terrifying, I guess?...

I wasn't afraid at all, actually. I was in shock. This is a thing people.

Shock is a gift. It is the weapon that poisons true horror.

I have tasted shock in my life many, many times. No wonder I enjoy my "poison" so much. :)

Shock is not just ok. It's a gift. Not from God lmao! xD I'm an atheist looool, sorry guys. God ain't real. ;) If he is to you it's totally ok btw, just speaking my mind right now. :)

Back on topic. I am not a "visual" person by default. I have always had a silent voice in my mind.

That voice is me. It doesn't sound like anything at all. Our thoughts are very different from "reality".

Some people can't "see" things in their minds at all. It is called aphasia. It's quite normal to people who have this condition.

I don't have aphasia. I simply relate to it a little too well.

The reason why is because I am completely normal by my own standards, quite naturally. :)

So what if my visual imagination is just a tad bit off? I really do appreciate art, it's just a bit of a natural disadvantage for me.

As a child I literally only dreamed in various shades of grey. Black and white, if you will.

I am not boy crazy. At. All. My mom was, though.

Did I mention that that horrific bitch is fucking dead already? ;) I do believe that I have! :)

I am repulsed by the thought of being controlled by others. I get that it's a turn on, for some, I guess...

Uh yeah, rape fantasies exist for a reason apparently.

I hate rape fantasies btw. I can simply imagine the reality of it far too well. I have not seen it. Ever. Unfortunately (or not?...), I have still heard it with my own two ears. I have heard it several times, at least, sadly.

I am not a submissive person by nature. At all. People like to think that I am, because it's just oh so fucking adorable, right?

Yes and no...
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Some women aren't actually submissive, ya know? I'm not. I'm very dominant actually. In the bedroom? Uh no. Get your mind out of the gutters you fucking perverts. :)

I just like what I like. I very rarely have sex honestly. Because germs still exist lmao, and I know far too many fucking morons who don't know how to put on a condom.

Obviously I haven't had sex with very many people. That's my business, not "yours", whomever is reading this. I am a human being, not a piece of cake. Or a fucking cow, according to some repulsive metaphors.

I'm just me! I'm ok now honestly, I just had to type that out very badly. Anyone can reply with whatever, it doesn't bother me at all. Good night. :)