Is it normal that my greatest source of happiness is dan howell(youtuber)?

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First of all it's not just his content and the way he is in his actual videos. I like him for his personality which, if you have seen one of his liveshows is not fake.
He's the only one that can make me genuienly happy. He just makes me feel some sort of inner calmness and happiness(tbh it's the best feeling I've ever experienced). He is just a lovely and humble soul that deserves every ounce of happiness in the world.
But sometimes I also get incredibly sad because I don't know him personally. I just want to be friends with him but that will never happen. He helps me see the light when I feel depressed yet again. I'm also trying to change the way I think about myself(which is a topic he sometimes talks about in his liveshows) and I'm just trying to be as good of a human being as I can possibly be.
I just love him so much as a human being. He truely is beautiful(inside and outside) and he's just a blessing to the world.
Is it normal that I hold such strong emotions for someone that doesn't know me and that I don't know on a personal level?
And please don't comment anything like I'm probably 12 and it's just a crush. I'm 19 and it's not a real crush. I don't feel the need to be romantically involved with him

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  • RobotApocalypse
    6 years ago

    Hey, it might not be normal but what the hell really is anymore... I've been a huge fan of Dan and Phil for 4 years now and at one point i really did tie my happiness to their existence, and i do the same with musicians even now so yeah, id say you have nothing to worry about. Work on yourself, practice self love, and if Dan Howell helps you do that then why worry if its normal.

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  • BLOODNUNS
    6 years ago

    yes bitch i love dan howell ive been a stannie of him and phil for over three years now

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  • Murun
    6 years ago

    My emotional maturity wasn't much different between 12 and 19.

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  • Blabla123
    6 years ago

    Idk why are you like that guy is really boring lol

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  • bubsy
    6 years ago

    I don't know what the definition of 'fake' is anymore, but the kid is obviously reading a script and giving a performance. That you're so emotionally invested is a sign that you need to get out more.

    And until you do, you'll stay depressed.

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    • WhatAmIDoingWithMyLife
      6 years ago

      This has absolutely NOTHING to do with my depression. Honestly that's just plain rude to even assume that I would get better once i stopped watching him because he's HELPING me so much. And I've read so many people say that he or also other YouTubers are only acting but sorry to say that but shut the hell up because if you even watched one of his liveshows, you'd know he's not faking anything. Is it really so hard to believe that there is someone "famous" that is really humble, genuine and caring? Not the whole world is full of fake people.
      But still I appreciate you answering and I get that one might say that I need to distance myself from him and his content but I would never do that. Would you distance yourself from the one thing that makes you feel really happy during good and most importantly also bad times? I think not

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      • bubsy
        6 years ago

        You ought to read your USERNAME out loud. The source of your depression is the fact that you don't do anything but troll on IIN and apparently, watch youtube.

        You need to start doing something difficult. You need to create things and work your ass off, otherwise you'll despise the shell of a person you've become.

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        • WhatAmIDoingWithMyLife
          6 years ago

          Don't take something simple as a username too seriously. Sorry but you don't know my personal situation and how I spend my freetime so don't assume anything.
          I mean I'm not "working my ass off" but I would if I knew what for. I'm just at a point in my life where I don't know what to do. I'm not going to talk about it in great detail now but watching a YouTuber has nothing to do with my depression. I was depressed before I even started watching YouTube or anything like that

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          • bubsy
            6 years ago

            Trust me, I don't want to talk about your life in great detail either. But you can't wait for something to magically give your life meaning.

            You have to try things, put forth effort and risk real failure if you want to be something other than miserable. Because 'being miserable' is easy—continue to do nothing.

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