Is it normal that my feelings for people are consciously generated?

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I don't know how people feel love and things like that, but I was able to mentally conjure the feelings to where I forced myself to feel them bodily, even as the opposite sex, when it was appropriate. All my sadness was kind of fake I think, I was crying hard and generating panic attacks and derealization from within, just to prove the feelings to "whoever may be listening", even though I was completely alone. I realize now that no one listens, but it's kind of a superstition. I think that if I don't feel a certain way, I will be punished by some imaginary forces for lacking empathy. Ideally I would like to never have any connection with people outside of family, as this compulsive empathy is something I'm unsure how to manage.

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  • Grunewald
    4 years ago

    I feel for you :-(.

    Feeling is social currency in our world. The current trend is that people will judge as 'good' a person who has a strong sense of empathy (or the 'right' feelings about the 'right' things - in their collective opinion) and as 'bad', a person who doesn't. And that's even though it's not the person's fault that they have had this deficiency from birth or early childhood, or that they see things differently. It's not fair.

    Don't let yourself be shamed for falling into the undesirable 'caste'. Irrespective of our feelings or empathy, there is an objective right and wrong set by eternal laws; do the right things and you can hold your head high no matter what people say. These people who shame you because of their petty judgmentalism and crowd mentality couldn't care less whether you're actually doing right or wrong. Right and wrong mean little to then outside of the what the group they're in conceives them to be. They just care about being seen to have the 'approved' opinion about you. They can't see past the collective clout of the caucus when it comes judging justice or injustice. If the hoard says it's right, it's right, as far as they're concerned. But there is a law-giving authority greater than any human authority, whose 'right' and 'wrong' doesn't change on a whim or depend on how many people like you. Find solace in that and keep on doing the right thing, knowing that He is watching and that His opinion is the only one that ultimately matters. This is what I personally have done.

    You have a gift in your condition in that the political posturing that's designed to exploit you by playing on your sense of empathy can't get to you. You can see past smokescreens that others can't. You can see how people use emotion to bully people. You can contribute that gift to the good of society. As long as you keep trying to do right, irrespective of how you or anyone else feels, you are less of a danger to society than many people with empathy who sear their consciences by either suppressing them, or being wilfully cruel.

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  • Doesnormalmatter
    4 years ago

    I didn't know it was possible to consciously make yourself have feelings. I want more sex drive! Come on body!

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    • Primus
      4 years ago

      Oh yeah, you can force yourself to care for/hate anything with enough practice. Eventually, you can even acknowledge you're lying to yourself and still see the same results. It's the only way I can get up in the morning anymore, and it works 95% of the time.

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      • Doesnormalmatter
        4 years ago

        I can't imagine its possible for me, but I'm sure others can. And not every feeling can be generated obviously and only to a certain extent.

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