Is it normal that im jealous that my best friends are pregnant?

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So up until now my two best friends and I have never fought or misunderstood each other and have always had a bond thats irreplaceable. I stood by and watched the two of them get engaged together, get married the same year, and now they are pregnant together. I on the other hand am single, have no kids, and still just trying to find my place in life. Lately since they have been pregnant I am so jealous of their bond and how they get to share the biggest moments of their lives together and it feels like it will never come to me. On top of this I myself and going through a lot of life changes and just moved to a new place (really close to one of them) and was seasonally depressed through the winter. I am finding it really hard to even tolerate their constant happiness and not to sound cliche but all they talk about is babies. I obviously can not relate, and they cant relate to me either. Neither one of them has ever dealt with depression. I recently had it out with one of my best friends (the one I live close to) and I did nothing but admit that the problems were caused by me and that I can feel my depression affecting my friendships. I admitted that I was trying really hard to deal with all of this jealousy and that I cant feel like I can talk to either of them right now about anything other than babies. My friend on the other hand basically said that she was going to continue to be "her" and that these issues were mine to fix. I agree but what the hell she is supposed to be my best friend and at least understand that this is just a big change for me and I am allowed to be upset and have feelings about all of this. Now I feel even more pressure to be fake and kiss their asses and pretend that I care. Honestly I get annoyed every time the conversation turns to babies now. help me!!!!

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  • LucyConfused
    12 years ago

    I am so in the same boat you are!! I feel like giving you a huge hug. I was in a very close knit group of 6 women. About 2 years ago, we all started dating men seriously. In January, my serious boyfriend said he needed to "find himself" and bailed. So I had to stand by all freshly dumped and watch and pretend to be happy for each girl as their boyfriends popped out diamond rings like candy. I've been to 4 weddings this year and a baby shower. The last one gets married soon. We used to go out for drinks after work, giggle over sex lives, watch movies, go shopping, etc. Now, all they ever want to do is talk about weddings, buying a family home, getting pregnant, talking about how their babies are all going to be best friends, which breast milk pump is the best, and swapping recipes to make for their husbands when they get home from work. They are all glowingly happy and i'm miserable. Not only did I love my love, I also have to watch the salt get thrown in my wounds when they look at me pityingly because I "chose the wrong man". I'm angry at them for all becoming stepford wives and losing all the personality they used to have. But They seem very happy with their new situations and they still have each other, so they don't seem to care that i'm fading out of their lives. I asked my best friend about it and she looked at me and told me that it was natural to grow up and get married, that i shouldn't be mad at them because they matured "on time" and i'm still "emotionally incapable of understanding their happiness."

    Since when did friendship mean only in good times? They have everything they ever wanted, is it too much to show some compassion to the "unlucky" one?

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