Is it normal that i watched the most degrading porn ever and feel really sad?
Ok so let me explain. I've watched allll types of porn. Well not all haha. But I have watched some really hardcore stuff. Slapping,choking etc. For the most part, the women usually seemed to enjoy it. At least, that's what they portrayed. I have no problem with a guy or girl getting slapped etc. Especially if they like it and it's more of a fetish.
This one video I was watching made me feel terrible for the girl. They even stopped shooting having sex and the girl was explaining how her boyfriend would do the same. She explained how the boyfriend was abusive etc. This was not an act. It was more like a blooper video. Anyway, the guy was practically laughing at her. When they continued again he started slapping her and choking her even harder. He brought up her boyfriend and said she probably deserved it. It was really painful to watch and to be honest I feel like crying.
Believe me, I've met girls who told me they enjoy when their boyfriends choke them etc.. that's all fine and dandy but this was just wow.. Let's just say I lost my boner completely and feel like utter shit..
I've always had this sensitivity towards women. Sometimes I feel like it's common sense, other times I feel like people find things like this funny. I do not believe they should start censoring anything.. but how the fuck can shit like this happen. As a guy, I get horny and love to check out these beautiful women have sex, give head etc.. but frankly, when they are being abused and it's clearly against their will (contract etc) .. it makes me feel absolutely terrible.. I feel sooo fucking sad right now.. I don't know what to do. Am I too sensitive?