Is it normal that i want to kill someone?

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Hello. I have an urge to kill people, but not just when I'm angry and not just the people that I dislike (although that does enhance(is that the right word?) my urges). Anyone. I just want to stab someone or something and watch them bleed out and die. I want to feel the blood on me and see their blood flowing out. I have planned how and with what and everything before. I play violent video games(and stuff like Yandere Simulator) a bunch to feel the rush and everything that comes with killing someone. When I do this(all of the stuff mentioned before) I have an urge to laugh. I dont know why. I harm myself sometimes because I am depressed, but I also love making myself bleed and watching it and feeling it.
The thing is, I have a fear of pain myself (dont ask how I am able to self-harm. I think that it's weird that I can hurt myself and not freak out.) and I think that it is effecting my thoughts as I dont like to cause other people to be in pain.
What I feel is that if I could kill someone without them feeling pain or their family or friends being hurt emotionally, I would.
I also feel as though I am going insane because of this.
Is this all normal?

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  • I'm-not-a-bitch
    8 years ago

    Go seek help and restore yourself from that bitchy and messed up attitude. This is insane if it's really true.

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  • noid
    8 years ago

    Of course it's not normal

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  • pixie44
    8 years ago

    I'd go see a doctor. It sounds like you lack empathy which could interfere with your life. Or as you say could end up killing someone. I would suggest talking to someone about your problems maybe get some medicine if they decide to diagnose you.

    Also have you always felt this way? Or did you just start feeling this way lately?

    It could be brought on by something that happened.

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    • deaththrowaway
      8 years ago

      I don't think that I've always felt this way, but I'm not sure. I just know that it's been getting worse lately and that if I have always felt this way, then I've never noticed it and it wasn't as bad.
      And I'm not sure what could have caused me to be this way. I don't think anything's happened that could make me feel like this

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      • ArtixDante
        8 years ago

        I feel exactly the same way but i want to cause as much pain as i can in the process, not random people though, people that really annoy me. I would have no remorse

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      • Rebel_2
        8 years ago

        Why are you depressed? Maybe that's the reason why you want to kill people.

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  • Morgen0102
    8 years ago

    I'm going through the exact same thing, except I don't have a fear of pain.

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    • 2009ispronouncedtwentyohNineKok
      6 years ago

      Go seek a Doctor NOW!!

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  • horny_simpletons
    8 years ago

    I suggest you get help. At least you have a conscience, as indicated by that last part. I want to get rid of this girl who my crush said had gigantic jugs, and she also wouldn't leave him alone for months. But nothing is worth years in prison or hurting someone's loved ones.

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  • In-the-dark
    8 years ago

    It's normal. :) I can understand what you mean. Wanting to watch the blood melt over the floor until it consumes it. But what would be the point of killing somebody if you don't want them to hurt.
    I would want to see the fear in their eyes while the were begging for their lives lol give them hopes of going free then kill them slowly.

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  • flyingnostalgia
    8 years ago

    Start with yourself!

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