Is it normal that i want to do this, even though i have a boyfriend?
My boyfriend and I are in love, no question about it. There isn't even a shred of doubt in my mind that I love him, or that he loves me - so please no "you obviously don't love him" comments.
The thing is, there's this guy, we'll call him Ben. Ben and I aren't exactly friends, but we chat every so often about music and photography, and things that we're into. Lately our conversations have turned towards more graphic photography. I don't want to cheat on my boyfriend, I don't want to kiss/have sex with Ben. I just want to lay naked with him, feel the skin to skin contact, have a deeper connection. I'm not romantically/physically/sexually interested in him, you know? I've tried laying naked with my boyfriend (no sex, foreplay, kissing, etc.), but I wasn't satisfied the way I feel I would be if I could just lay naked with Ben and talk about the world.
I get it, I'm a bad girlfriend, etc.
But is it normal to want to lay naked with another man in a nonsexual way?