Is it normal that i want to be free and live by my own strength?

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Hey everybody,

This question is going to be quite long, even as I am typing this now I can't really think of how to properly word it.

For as long as I can remember I have been worse than pessimistic about living the live that we have stipulated for ourselves. Studying, working and then dying. It feels as though I am born as a cell in a giant organism. It is expected that I do my job as a tiny part of the whole and then die off and be replaced. I am almost done with studying biology but this has only made these thoughts worse.

Why do we enslave ourselves? I cant understand why anyone would want to live like this. We are disconnected from each other and from our roots. I consider myself a man of science. I am an atheist and thus do not believe in any kind of divine retribution or any kind of judgement for our actions after our death. There is only a small amount of time on this planet before our light dims again.

I have been plagued by the thought, or rather the urge to return to nature. Hunt for myself, build my own shelter and see if I can survive. Maybe in underpopulated parts of Russia or Canada. I am not delusional, I don't think I am super-human or anything like that. I have some training in bush crafting and surviving but hardly anything to match the requirements of living in the wild. I'd say there is a very good chance that I'd die within two years.

But wouldn't that be a fate preferable to this? choosing to let someone else choose our life for us, to live the live that has been lived by countless other people? To not be able to harvest the fruits of your own labor or strength?

I don't want to be a part of this kind of life. I am starting some courses this summer to learn how to butcher animals and identify edible plants. I am also saving up to get a buffer for maybe the first few months. canned food and such so I can ease into learning to fend for myself fully.

I hope you took the time to read all of this. I'd love to hear your thoughts.

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  • Crow
    7 years ago

    Check out Christopher McCandless.

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    • BonerPenis
      7 years ago

      Unfortunately most people won't know of him. I do. Treadwell died harder.

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  • bubsy
    7 years ago

    Nihilism is man's true devil to overcome. Realize that you're an individual and that you have your own power, and you can take control over the world around you. Pursue financial independence. Become an entrepreneur or a contractor or a landlord or whatever pursuit best serves your skill set.

    Smart, hard work over time = whatever life you want. But if it was easy, no one would settle for being miserable.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      I agree that you would be a much more free man that way. But there is just something about returning to what we were evolved to do best. I respect independent entrepreneurs and people who take control of their own situation. But you are still in a fairly fake environment. And you also still rely on bureaucracy to some extend

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  • Silas
    7 years ago

    I... I didn't think.. that anyone would.. would think the same thing! Wow, you are my new best friend (in philosophy-wise). I've always wanted to do that too, and I'm not even kidding. wow, I've finally found someone who thinks the same... though of course you don't know me, but what if you know me, and we just don't know it... I am 100% serious.

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    7 years ago

    Thats amazing! Where are you going? And where did you learn the skills you are going to use?

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  • Cedric_Diggory
    7 years ago

    "Hey everybody. This question is going to be quite long. Why do we enslave ourselves? I have been plagued. I don't want to be part of this life. I hope you took the time to read all of this."

    That's all I read.

    No, it's not normal to have the plague.

    You're welcome

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      "All I read. Normal to have the plague. Welome"

      You need to see a doctor man :/ you have severe misconceptions about normal body functions

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  • shinji
    7 years ago

    Considering how fucked up humanity and the world is...yes its a perfectly normal wish.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      It feels terribly stupid to follow humanity in a direction that I completely disagree with. It'd be amazing to be freed from that guilt

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  • ogrelord
    7 years ago

    create a tribe and live in the bush. i'll join

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      Honestly I have actually thought about looking for people to join. But I never tried because I am afraid other people wouldn't be willing to go as far as me. But man, if we were to ever meet you're welcome to join me on a hunt sometime

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  • Anewbis
    7 years ago

    Not crazy.

    You might want to look into Permaculture where you grow an entire edible ecosystem.

    Cheers.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      Seems interesting, I will

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