Is it normal that i used to think about my mom while i was masturbating

I'm 19 and I don't know why I'm asking this now, but I guess because I don't have any more sexual feelings towards my mom brings me less shame to ask such a question, but I'm still ashamed of myself for what I was doing at 15-16. A lot of guys are the most horny and confused at that age. It got so bad that I masturbated with her old panties. I hated myself for that, but I guess my hormones aren't as crazy as they used to be but the idea of presently thinking about my mom in a sexual way, well I don't even want to talk about it much less do it, the idea repulses me now and I don't know why I was completely different about it a few years ago.

I'm disgusted and ashamed of my younger self especially because I have such a close bond with her and the fact that she is my mom. I guess I want some closure because I've only kept it to myself and I would die if I told my mom about it. I don't think I was a messed up kid, but sex, sex, sex, well those thoughts were overwhelming me that I guess it mostly didn't matter who it was, but that's all I thought about. I'm not trying to make excuses but I just hate thinking about it so much and I need to ease the shame. Why couldn't I control myself at the least? then I wouldn't feel guilt and disgust by it now. Is it normal?

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  • EightHundred

    Wow.
    Ignorant uneducated people everywhere.
    One of the points of life is to reproduce, you know? Sex is pointless otherwise.

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    • dybex

      It's not human to think like that.

      "Boire sans soif et faire l'amour en tout temps, madame, il n'y a que ça qui nous distingue des autres bêtes."

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  • dybex

    You were young and curious and wanted to know a bit more about vaginas. You wanted to know what they smelt like or tasted like.

    The problem is: a healthy fully developed vagina smells wonderful to most guys. Sorry to gross you out girls, but it does. It's like a drug. The reaction you got from the smell of your mother's underpants was therefore natural.

    That is why you should never sniff your mom's or sister's underwear. You will enjoy the smell. You can't help but enjoy it if you're a guy. But because it's your mom or sister, you're always going to feel disgusted afterwards. So don't do it.

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  • Holzman67

    She must be a milf

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  • my 51 yr old hubby "talks about his 80 yr old mom" while we are doing the deed so don't feel so bad ...talk about getting disgusted by the whole thing..now ever time he says sex she pops into my head its so gross

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  • Wuggums47

    I personally have never and would never do that, but I think you did it because you wanted to smell a vagina, not because you wanted sex with your mother.

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  • Perfectly normal to me! I actually went a step further and spied on mom & step-dad when they were in the shower. That really helped with the visuals when I jerked off thinking about them. LOL

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  • (s)aint

    Urgh. It's MASTURBATION. It doesn't HURT anyone.

    Even if someone were to fuck their consenting mother that would be perfectly fucking all right!
    Sex isn't something to take this fucking seriously.
    If you use protection and don't reproduce with close relatives there really is no fucking harm in these kinds of thing.
    Geeez, fuck off.

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  • Avant-Garde

    No.

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  • handsignals

    Dude...that's just wrong.

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    • DemonofEmpire

      and what makes you so perfect that you can judge other people

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  • 69

    this is so foreign to me that i don't know how i could help you. all i can try to do is relate to you through the feelings of shame and regret i've had in my life. seems like you should let it go and not think much of it. if it's gone and it doesn't affect you presently, you should be fine. you are a different person now and you seem to know it already since you refer to your "younger self". if it haunts you then you should talk to someone like a therapist about it

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