Iin, that i sabotage myself because, i fear success and moving on?

I don't know what's wrong with me. I used to be so fearless and full of drive when I was a child.

These past few years, I've gotten into the habit of making excuses for myself and recently, I finally realized that I've been sabotaging myself. I'm going to graduate high school late mainly due to self-sabotage. I want to be successful but, deep down I fear it. I want to move on and live my own life but, I fear that too. I've even been sabotaging myself by not diligently following a ADD/brain health related program and from taking the steps of pursuing my dreams of being a musician. I don't know what's wrong with me. I've even sabotaged friendships and other platonic relationships, but that's another story. Please, help me. I'm tired of feeling and living like this. IIN?

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  • lonely_guy

    Pressure of success, fear of unknown challenges are the reasons I see for self sabotaging. I used to do the same for some time and it doesn't do any good.
    I have a cousin who is really great at his work but recently he opened up that he holds back when he sees big opportunities, he keeps on trying to get new projects but somewhere he keeps hoping that he should't get the project. So basically even somebody great at his work does it.
    My advice, to finish tasks at hands to get over it. Nobody knows/does everything of everything so you can stay little relaxed.

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  • WhiteStallion

    You sound like me its scary just without the ADD, musician part. I need great motivation to do something and if I want to do something big I get multiple opinions from everyone but I usually end up doing it. If I procrastinate or do myself down because of the pressure, the work I do isn't as good as it could have been.

    I'm still learning from these past mistakes and as soon as I get going with something I realize what a waste it was fretting about in the first place. Just take the first easy step and before you know it you'll be making progress!

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