Is it normal that i need to feel like a teenage schoolboy and be caned.
I need to be punished in this manner to alleviate real guilt. I am a balanced grown up but these feelings from my youth are too strong to ignore. It focusses and motivates me.
To feel like a teenage schoolboy in my mind | 1 | |
To be caned for real offences | 3 | |
To feel absolution after such caning | 2 | |
To feel humility but not humiliation. | 0 |