Iin, that i'm sick of other people and don't want friends anymore?

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I used to think that having friends and a social life was very important. But I've always sucked at dealing with people. I especially seem to have a genetic inability to garner respect from others. This has been an overarching theme in my life. The last straw(s) came two years ago, when I got cut loose from a job I thought was going well (and took great pride in) when some female client complained that I was "creepy" and she didn't want me in her establishment... and then I find out the boss wasn't training me on a crucial part of the job because he thought I was too "slow" to learn it. I had to ASK him, before he told me there was a problem! This isn't the first time I wasn't given enough rope to hang myself; another time a boss I'd worked for BEFORE, and seemed to like my work (at that time, it was independent unsupervised work mostly, where I wasn't being scrutinized constantly) fired me after two weeks in a more people-oriented job after he'd gotten six complaints from his subordinate supervisors about me- and told me to go to the local "sheltered workshop" employment service for RETARDS, because I had "ADHD" (his own off-the-cuff diagnosis) and "couldn't manage myself" (I'd taken and passed the manager's exam three days before) and he didn't think I could be trained to manage others.
I came close to putting a .357 slug through my skull that afternoon. Maybe I should have.
Yesterday, I turned down a high-paying government job for which I've been being background-checked for two years. The staffing division called with the job offer (it would have been a challenging job, and I'd have been dealing with people) and I told them no. I don't think I'd survive another epic job failure. I think I may be an Aspergoid mutant, or autistic or something. I'm probably a mental defective.
So, I don't want friends anymore. (After my last firing (the one where the boss told me to go to the retard employment service) I called my (formerly!) best friend and told him not to call me anymore. He can fraternize with windowlickers if he wants to, but I'm not going to aid and abet it.
Now? I just want to be alone for the rest of my life (who wants a retard for a friend, anyhow? I sure as hell wouldn't) and do some line of work which doesn't involve people contact. Any idea what such work might be? (I don't consider the Internet a useful way to make money, it's all scams and bullsh!t as far as I can see.)

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  • overweightdoomsayer
    13 years ago

    Better be alone then surrounded by a bunch of fake morons who just want to talk crap behind your back.
    I am used to be alone,no need for friends.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    wow, your boss seems like they have some problems of his/her own....
    that definitely caused you some emotional trauma, so telling your friend off might have been a shaky decision at the time... id do a few counselling sessions, so that way you can learn to deal with that, and, if by the super off-chance that your boss WAS being serious about the adhd thing (probably not, but who knows) then you can deal with that, as well.

    on the other hand, as for not wanting friends anymore, i think that theres nothing wrong with a little solitude. its always good to stick to one or two good friends (in which case you should probably call up that one friend and fix this up) or even none at all if youre the kind of person who doesnt rely on people.

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  • wordcat
    13 years ago

    Become a writer. They need solitude.

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  • amberinboston
    13 years ago

    No friendship is perfect. And no friend is perfect. People will and do things to annoy us. Friendship is about acceptance rather than wanting them to be someone we prefer.
    However, there are a lot of "frenemies" around..
    And sometimes a friend can cross the line..
    Being alone feels wonderful sometimes too.

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  • anonima73
    13 years ago

    I understand you. I want to stop being with my friends. Their cool but tire me cause it's all a load of hypocrisy. WE are all hahahaha and then whispering behind our backs.(including me) In my opinion friends aren't real, just fake. But that is just my opinion and I respect your opinion. Do what YOU think is right.

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  • mattwho16
    13 years ago

    Ya don't let small periods in your life make everything else hard and the funniest guy I ever met had Dow syndrome his name was Chris w and he's awesome I would gladly buy him a hooker before any of the non handicap people I ever met or give him a free doobie bfor any not retarded person

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  • ryanthony
    13 years ago

    ...oh, and you shouldn't hate on the mentally handicapped.

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  • ryanthony
    13 years ago

    This is normal for everyone. To get so sick of the way people are and just want to give up on them. It's an important message that is sent through superhero stories where they "need their friends" to help them or they fight to preserve human kind because it's so important...

    Believe me, there is no reason to take your own life. You deserve as much as happiness as anyone else on the earth, and believe me, karma exists, and so long as you're a good person, good things will eventually come to you. I know it sounds like a fairytale, but I've seen more truth to that statement than I have seen justice served in the court system.

    Not everyone NEEDS friends, but they are quite the luxury to have. They help keep us in check, build powerful emotional and personal attachments and communication skills.

    With so many people in the world, you can't give up on all of them just because of a few horrible "friends."

    Good luck.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    i feel the same way i still have friend but only the ones that are actully your friends not the ones that talk behind your back and use you and stuff and if you do find a friend like that just drop him/her like it do lol having friends is a good thing but you just have to find the right ones!:)

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  • loviex102
    13 years ago

    That's why I stopped keeping/making friends 2 years back and I've been so much happier!! The only thing is, my parents and relatives find me odd.

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