Is it normal that i'm obsessed with food and don't have an eating disorder?

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Well, I used to have an eating disorder problem. I grew up with an evil Asian mother who told me I was stupid, ungrateful, & fat and needed to stop eating (which I did) and I developed every possible eating disorder from 12 through 20.

Now I eat normally and my weight is stable & normal and I eat anything and I've never counted calories again, but I obsess over which bite is the last for when I'm full. I also still obsess over my weight fluctuation, even though I've been between 110-115 for a year... and there's really no reason to obsess like this.

Here are my questions:

Does a normal person, with normal weight, and who eats normal food.... obsess about when they're full? Or does a normal person just go with the flow and not give it much thought?

Does a normal person fluctuate within 5 pounds?

Does a normal person not freak out about being given a slice of cake at a work party once in awhile, and does a normal person not freak out about eating it along with everyone else even if they aren't feeling particularly hungry? Does a normal person also not freak out about going out for the occasional alcoholic drink with friends, or the coffee & chitchat even when said normal person is not hungry or thirsty?

Keep in mind, I don't want to lose weight, gain weight, or be a crazed health nut. Even though my weight is normal and my eating is normal now, I still just want to remember what it was like to feel psychologically normal with food (like when I was young a kid).

I just want to be normal.

My weird obsession for constantly observing EVERYTHING (even though everyone around me thinks my eating is normal, which it actually is).... this constant noise in my head is interfering with my life and making me crazy.. help. Please tell me what normal looks and feels like. Thanks.

-Mary

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  • BurnaBaby27
    12 years ago

    I've been taught that once you have an eating disorder, much like an addiction, you ALWAYS have it. It can get better and not control your life but you will always be a sufferer so I'd say you still have an eating disorder. And based on what you've said, it doesn't sound like you're hiding it. It seems to be alive and well :/.

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  • joybird
    12 years ago

    Normal people eat when they're hungry, stop when they're full and have the odd treat / enjoy a celebration.

    To most people food is just fuel for the body. The media has made it a major issue but you are maintaining a healthy weight range so I'm sure your food choices will become instinctive soon enough. Don't stress about it - you're doing great!

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