Is it normal that i'm in love with my stepmom?
Okay, so my mom died in a boating accident five years ago. I used to believe that my dad killed her on purpose, but now I basically trust him. Anyway, shortly after my mom's death, my dad got married to this really hot woman who's 25 years younger than him (he's pretty rich, so lots of women wanna marry him). She's almost as young as me!
It didn't take me long to get really fucking attracted to her. She looks fucking amazing! REALLY fucking amazing!!! She makes movie stars look like shit! I've always felt kind of uneasy around her 'cause of how hot she is and how much of an ugly-ass bastard I am. She's pretty nice to me, though. Whenever she talks to me, I always get a hard-on, so that makes our conversations kind of awkward.
I've always been afraid that she'd find out how attracted I am to her, so often times, whenever we're together, I act really mean and hostile toward her so she'll have no idea that I secretly like her. Then, when she gets mad at me, I apologize and really try to suck up to her, telling her how great she looks and everything. Basically, our relationship is definitely not normal!
Yesterday, our relationship took a turn for the serious. I made myself throw up so I could stay home from school (my school starts insanely fucking early - don't ask, my principal is basically a crackhead), then I had her feel my forehead (felt fucking great) and take my temperature. I pretended not to know how to use a thermometer, so I made her stick the thing in my mouth. That part wasn't fun. I ended up gagging and she had to take it out.
I told her I felt really fucking sick and she started getting really sympathetic with me. I asked her for a hug and she hugged me while I was lying IN BED!!! The moment her boobs rubbed against me was the greatest fucking moment of my life!!! Our hug seemed to last forever, then I asked her to kiss me. To my amazement, she kissed me on the cheek and told me I was a great kid. Then she got up, told me she had to go do something important, and abandoned me for the next several hours. I was crushed!
Ever since our moment of great intimacy, I haven't been able to stop thinking about her. My dick's been hard for the last 9 hours!!! If I could ever fuck her, it would be the best thing to ever happen to me (and possibly her). Do you think I should try to fuck her? How should I go about doing that? Do you think there's any remote chance she likes me back? Is any of this normal? Answers and opinions shall be greatly appreciated!