Is it normal that i'm feeling cynical about family vacation?
I'm really sad because I'm going on vacation with my family. I know that, that sounds weird because usually people would be excited about vacation. But I'm just not looking forward to anything. I feel so unbelievably fat and ugly. My stomach is literally popping out and it's just really upsetting. There will be swimming there and I just am feeling really insecure about wearing a bathing suit. I'm worried that this vacation will be a complete bust because I just feel so awful about myself that I won't be able to have fun without feeling self-conscious. I feel ugly and uncomfortable in my own skin. We had to go shopping the other day for summer clothes and I just felt like s*** all day. Nothing fit and I just really wanted to die. I don't want to ruin this for my family but I just really hate how I look and feel right now.