Is it normal that i'm always acting how i think i 'should' be acting?

I'm constantly putting on this act on how I think I should be acting and behaving. Not necessarily to be proper or perfect. It's more like I don't know how I would actually react or behave in certain situations. I just know how I should act and behave-- what's expected.
For example: During funerals, I don't normally feel the urge to cry, so I make myself cry. I'm sure many people do this in particular, but I think it's a clear example on what I mean.
Another recent example occurred when my dad's truck caught on fire. I was nervous, of course, but when I was asked about it, I started to act more scared than I was, believe or not. Like if I was putting on this act for their benefit. I felt like pretending to be more helpless than I was would be more fitting.
When I'm talking to people, I'm literally thinking "Okay, the correct thing to say in this situation is..." or actively adjusting my tone and/or personality, even, to fit more in certain situations and with certain people. I rarely have natural reactions and rarely express my real thoughts. I have thoughts and feelings of my own. I know that. It's just that when I'm out and facing reality, it's almost as if I don't allow myself to acknowledge them.

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Based on 12 votes (7 yes)
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  • JellyBeanBandit

    You should probably try to break out of that and just be yourself and act naturally instead. Otherwise you'll spend your whole life as someone else.

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  • I guess it’s better than ignoring the fact the fire started and just walking away as if you started it and your names Ryan.

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    • RoseIsabella

      *wonders who Ryan is*

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      • *wonders why Rose hasn’t watched the office*

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        • RoseIsabella

          Wait a minute... I just recently started watching The Office. I'm actually not that familiar with that guy to tell you the truth. Dwight is funny as Hell!

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          • He’s my favorite! Creed I always thought was pretty funny too. I feel like you’d connect with Angela on a very serious cat related level. It was one of those shows I never really got that into but would watch if I had nothing else to. Like when I’d finish a show I was binging for a long time and felt like I didn’t know what to watch next or to do with my life. But it is a great show got me laughing a lot. I don’t really care for Ryan tho especially Gabe simply his face was annoying enough.

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            • RoseIsabella

              OMG! After I read your comment I got myself lost on Wikipedia looking at stuff about The Office. I actually really like that show. Angela is very pretty, but kinda mean. HAHAHAHA! However, I totally understand her cat obsession. I like when she brings her cat to work!

              Ryan does have a weird face.

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