Is it normal that i like people saying hurtful stuff to me?

Its difficult to explain what i feel and what i mean...but i,ll do my best to explain. At first i didnt like the hurtful words they said...it would make me cry. After many years of verbal abuse i am kind of liking it now. Of course i get hurt by the things they say, but at the same time i get this feeling of pleasure. The feeling of my heart breaking and the thrill of wanting to know how far (my heart) can take it. i get all warm and begin to sweat, my mind get numb...and i being to feel like i,m dreaming. And i wonder how much can one endure ...like what is the limit and how to achieve it?
Now i sometime provoke others and make them angry just so they can say something mean.
Anyone else who can relate to this?

Voting Results
28% Normal
Based on 32 votes (9 yes)
Help us keep this site organized and clean. Thanks!
[ Report Post ]
Comments ( 7 )
  • Cliche1234

    That explains why you used "i" instead without using capital letter in your post. You wanted to provoke some grammar and spelling perfectionists here just to fulfill your goal. Clever move.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
  • TheCockRoach

    Maybe in the end you'll be like the Tin-Man you'll have no heart.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
  • Arm0se

    Do you do things to make them say hurtful things to you?

    "I"... There's a big difference between "," and "'", bub.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
      -
    • Short4Words

      He just said he did.

      Comment Hidden ( show )
        -
      • Arm0se

        Yeah, sorry I may not have been clear enough. I meant before he'd just started giving them excuses.

        Comment Hidden ( show )
  • Short4Words

    You get off on it because of years and abuse because it's the only thing you know. This is not healthy and if you ever want to be truly happy you need to stop.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
  • I can probably help with this and ironicly when I give advice on peoples self loathing, they often don't like it.

    If you cannot respect yourself, nobody will respect you. Fortunately for you, you probably don't give a fuck if they do. However you are making problems for others by not standing up for yourself.

    How the fuck will you ever stand up for others if you cannot do it for yourself? What are you going to do when someone takes advantage of someone you are supposed to care about?

    When you let people act hurtful towards you, you are teaching them that it is ok to act like that when its not.

    How are you going to feel when you teach them it is ok to be mean and they go and do it to the wrong person who will shank a motherfucker for acting that way?

    How are you going to feel when someone who demands respect sees that person acting that way and they aren't as tolerant towards disrespectful behavior as you are?

    It's up to everyone to enforce respectful behavior from others and it will become your fault if you fail to do so because not everyone is going to let people act that way.

    By tolerating abusive behavior, you are encouraging it and those behaviors will only grow and you are hurting them as well because you teach them it is ok. They may even become comfortable with killing you or others because when abusive behavior is failed to be stopped, it will only grow more and more each time.

    Get out of the disgusting cycle of self hatred and start demanding respect from others, whether or not you think you deserve it because it is everyone's responsibility to correct other peoples wrong doings.

    Comment Hidden ( show )