Is it normal that i like people saying hurtful stuff to me?
Its difficult to explain what i feel and what i mean...but i,ll do my best to explain. At first i didnt like the hurtful words they said...it would make me cry. After many years of verbal abuse i am kind of liking it now. Of course i get hurt by the things they say, but at the same time i get this feeling of pleasure. The feeling of my heart breaking and the thrill of wanting to know how far (my heart) can take it. i get all warm and begin to sweat, my mind get numb...and i being to feel like i,m dreaming. And i wonder how much can one endure ...like what is the limit and how to achieve it?
Now i sometime provoke others and make them angry just so they can say something mean.
Anyone else who can relate to this?