Is it normal that i like everyone but hate myself

Pretty much I don't hate anyone unless they are a psychopath or something, and I do anything for to make good people happy, because I cannot be happy myself, so I might as well give it away. IIN? also I like to abuse myself but i have to keep it mild because I'm not really living for myself, I'm living for those who put in the effort to keep me alive. but I eat things such as nail polish, acetone, rubber cement, etc. and I like to starve myself (again not prolonged as to be physically apparent) and withhold my medications because I feel i don't deserve them and I enjoy the unpleasant feeling of withdrawal. I wish i could cut/stab myself but that would be too obvious and i didn't put myself on this world so it's not my body to permanently damage.