Is it normal that i keep thinking about death of my family? :(
Sup yo awesome peeps!
Yesterday i had a cramp in the deep end in a pool i didn't tell anyone until i got out, so when i was on my way home i was thinking i could of died there. My last day could of been in a pool. Usualy when i come home from university i watch tv with my grand father for an hour but lately, he has only been staying with me for 3minutes and i'm really worried. I know it is stupid to worry about tv schedules and that stuff but I love my family oh so much and i don't like my family's behaviour change because it could mean something is wrong. Last night i had thoughts about death and then moved to my parent's room and then cried myself to sleep and today when i woke up i cried because i have this weird habit of thinking about things i think of the night before. I don't want to waste my time with this pathetic nonsense about death so please, tell me some words to snap me out of it. Sorry i didn't want to make it this long. I hope this is normal and i am happy because i am not alone. Ps. I am new.