Is it normal that i induced a period so my boyfr would not have sex with me?

It's bad to say but we would "get together" after much drink and all I really fancied going back to my boyfr's place was a sleep but he would just suddenly not even put but shove his hand down my pants (while i'm fully clothed and not indicating arousal) but this would physically turn me on, as he touched certain parts; so I'd consent to sex even though coerced and after the first few minutes I just wish him to either stop or just get it over with and it all doesn't feel right in the cold light of day.

On a night we drank, for quite a few months, I rationalised it to myself by having him as my boyfriend; as it somehow makes it right....not sure why.
Some times I knew it was coming but got to occasionally induced my period so he'd not touch me and it worked; which is great.
But I never loved him and still carrying on with him and rather than just letting him f*** me, I also try to enjoy it- still can anyone put narrative to this weird mess? put labels to this all so I can make sense of it? What could or should I do instead?
*Feedback appreciated but I will REPORT trolls*

Yes, that's fine! 0
Occasionally I guess. 2
Something's wrong here. 5
Are you that desperate for him not want to touch you? 0
No, WTF?! 3
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Comments ( 3 )
  • Boojum

    A confusing story, but it seems you don't feel any emotional attachment to him, you don't feel sexual attracted to him, and you're uncomfortable with letting him have sex with you when you don't really want it (as you should be).

    If you don't like the guy and the sex is crap, why are you calling him your "boyfriend"? Because you're desperate to have a boyfriend since that's the norm for women in your social circle? Because you need to have a boyfriend in order to feel desirable? Because he buys you stuff?

    From what you say, I don't understand why you're putting up with his crap or why he's putting up with your antipathy.

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  • lonelywallflower

    If you don't want sex just tell him. Done. If he doesn't listen then it's rape and get out of there.

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  • Firsttaste

    You should have a conversation with him and explain how you feel and suggest that you and him break it off. He must not be very good at what he does in the Sexual relationship so I don't think you should envest any more time with the relationship.

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