Is it normal that i haven't cried for a couple months?
I just moved away without saying goodbye to my friends and I left A LOT behind. And when I moved I started starving myself. But it wasn't just because I moved (lol I'm not one of those big big babies who cry about everysingle little thing *Cough cough donald trump) speaking of crying I also haven't cried in a couple months either. And time runs so quickly now. It feels like last Friday was yesterday (today's Friday the 13th spooky [dang it it's not October anymore T.T]). I don't like this. It feels like time is moving faster and faster. Everyday it's the same routine. And I only get 4 hours of sleep. I CANT get out of this cycle because I'm trapped. Whenever something bad happens to me I don't get scared and I don't back away. Whenever something bad happens to me it doesn't even hurt at all. Like I feel like I can't truly be happy because if I do, I feel like something mega bad will happen to me. I smile and laugh every single day at the stupidous sh*t like crazy but I can't seem to make myself really feel happy. School is also being an ass cuz I arrived later so at the beginning it was all thrown at me and my teachers were different and a lot more half-assed. But it wasn't always like this. Before I was a lot happier. But the other time I felt like this was last winter when I got phenomia :o (it's corona time(ToT))I just feel "meh". And I can't seem to focus on my daily shit. I also haven't left my house in 2 months because of covid and I'm on remote and I have no where to go but today I think I'm going to just stop and do what I gotta do. I'm just going to take a morning run since my choice was approved. Lol I have no idea how this is going to turn out because I don't know my way around the town. I guess it's ok to explore? But still I'm either gonna be kidnapped or in a car crash. Man I shouldn't joke about that. But yah can somebody please tell me why tf I haven't cried for months? Like I feel this lump in my throat and there are times everyday where I feel I'm gonna cry but I just end up not because I don't feel like it.