Is it normal that i have evil thoughts
I know they are wrong because today on the bus my ex-friend was walking down the aisle of the bus. The bus driver said bye to her and she rolled her eyes. I pictured the bus driver running her over and her blood spraying all over everyone on the bus. I was laughing so hard and then I started crying. Everyone was staring because I was crying and laughing. I feel evil. And it is all the time.... I am a masochist and I could never harm someone for fun but thinking about seeing others makes me laugh but then cry because I know it's evil. If I see people get injured in real life unless they deserve it I feel bad. What could this be?