Is it normal that i have a 1-hour phonecall and zoom chats every day, and yet
I feel so lonely I cuddle my plushie, masturbate to photos of my ex whom I haven't spoken to for 7 years rather than photos of the person I currently like (in order to stop the feelings getting stronger), and whisper 'I love you' to myself most days, wishing there was someone I could say it to?
I know writing a post like this is the online equivalent of acting like a sick little puppy just waiting to be kicked. But why should loneliness, and the things that loneliness can reduce you to, carry so much shame? Like many other things in life, it hurts.